Sunday, November 10, 2013

happy second birthday

i do not like birthdays.
i do not like them i say.
i do not want to celebrate it,
nope, not one tiny bit.

ok, that's actually a lie. because i totally love birthdays. but this is one birthday i am not ready to celebrate. there are balloons and streamers and a birthday cake i made. and we'll celebrate. she'll open presents. we'll all laugh and smile. but there will be a little part of my heart that is sad today. and it's only sad because time is going by way too fast. and i don't know how to slow it down. i can't believe my baby is two today.





















oh, my kinsley girl. words can not even begin to describe my love for you. my only hope is that you can feel it. and one day when you have a little girl of your own, only then will you begin to understand my love for you.

happy second birthday sweet girl.

love you to the moon and back,
mommy

ps. if you figure out a way to stop growing, please feel free to stay two years old forever.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

right now.

Right now I can hear the humming sound of the baby monitor. I can hear the cutest little snores coming from my sweet baby. These are the only snores I can sleep through, the only ones that can lull me to sleep. That sweet sleeping baby turns two on Sunday.

Right now she still has so many characteristics of being a baby. Her rolls on her wrists. Dimples on her chubby little knuckles. Her face, oh thank god she still has that chubby baby face that I love so much. Her laugh is the perfect baby laugh. And when she gets out of the bathtub she still have that sweet fresh baby smell that I fell in love with many years ago. She still waddles when she walks and it's even cuter when she runs. But she's also turning into a little toddler. She knows what she wants. When her sisters cry she runs up to them and says in the cutest, tiniest voice, "what's wrong?" When you ask her a question and she doesn't know she says, "um um.." That's my favorite. And when she sees something she really likes she makes the biggest gasping sound. She says thank you and she gives the tightest wrap around your neck type of hugs where her face is squished up against hers and you can feel her breathing and hear her grinding her teeth because she's making the biggest smile she possibly can. And while I'm sad the baby stage is slowly ending and that it will never make an appearance in this house again I'm loving right now more than I ever could have imagined.



Friday, October 11, 2013

the day of the girl



Dear Daughters,

My three, beautiful, smart daughters. Today is celebrate the day of the girl. And I am so blessed to be able to celebrate this day, times three.

I've written a lot of letters in the past to each of you. They usually talk about what I hope you learn and the future but today? The day of the girl. I'm going to talk about the present.

Sometimes you all fight, yell and even push each other. Sometimes you all want to be alone and not be bothered by your sisters. And I think I must be doing something wrong. I fear you all will hate each other when you're older. But then I catch moments like these...

Sisters snuggled on the floor, sleeping soundly.



















The look in your eyes, Kyleigh, when you look at Kayla. They turn into little crescent moons and sparkle.

You all wrapping your arms around each other when I want to take a picture. Or Kinsley leaning into your big sister.



































Kinsley pretending to suck her thumb like Kyleigh. She holds her thumb in her mouth just because her sister is.





















I hear your giggles. And see you all playing. The oldest leading. The younger two following along because they all want to be like their big sister. And then sometimes, when I'm really lucky, I get a glimpse into how strong each of your bonds are with me.

I feel it in the way Kinsley hugs me. And in the way Kyleigh and I laugh. And in the way Kayla's face lights up like she's seeing some secret magical thing when I tell her how proud I am of her.

And in these moments I realize I must of done something right. This right here is better than what I ever dreamed of.

You are all so beautiful in your own way. You each have your own unique talents. Some very much developed, other talents are still developing. Kayla, you are a remarkable artist, a perfectionist and so determined in everything you do. Kyleigh, you are witty and clever and our free-spirited child. And Kinsley, you are vigilant and loving and so much more that we haven't discovered yet. You each complete our little family but one thing is the same about each one of you. I love you three with every ounce of my being and I want better than the best for you.

So today, on the day of the girl, I celebrate each of you because you all are very special. Just the way you are. I've loved you since the minute you were born, and even before that. And I will continue to love you, just the way you are and just the way you become.

I love you,
Mama

"From here to the moon and back, who else in this world would love you like that?"

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

just the two of us


For the first time in her life Kinsley is finally getting one on one time with me. Every Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday we drop Kyleigh off at preschool and just the two of us go home. And it's not until now that I realize how much attention she craves from me. She always sits as close to me as possible, as in...any closer and she would be in my lap. And I also realize how much her sisters entertain her. If we go out she doesn't know what to do with herself. She stays with me and holds my hand. She won't go and play with anyone else. But for now I'm enjoying all the time she wants to spend with just me.








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