Showing posts with label mom of 3. Show all posts
Showing posts with label mom of 3. Show all posts

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

there's a new baby in town

no one tells you what it will really be like to be the mother to three or even two kids. what i always heard is, "oh going from one to two is nothing" yeah freaking right! i remember when we brought kyleigh home. that first day, actually that whole first week was hard. the first day we brought her home kayla wasn't listening. she had a balloon and she lost the balloon. daddy took it. she cried. and i wrapped my arm around her holding kyleigh in my other arm and cried with her. and that first day daddy went back to work? even worse. i remember crying on the couch, holding kyleigh, calling my husband. kayla was throwing every single toy possible at us and i thought, "what the hell did we do to her? we ruined her life." almost three years later and i know that's not true. but that's not to say that i don't feel bad for kayla at times.

she's had to sacrifice sometimes just because she was the oldest and kyleigh didn't know better. kyleigh was the baby so kyleigh got her way. but now it's kyleigh's turn to sacrifice. she is getting older and she isn't the baby anymore.

there's a new baby in town and she always gets her way.

kinsley is a hair puller. a "i'll push you down and jump on top of you to get your food" kinda baby. a "oh you're sleeping on the couch kyleigh? well, i'm going to come hit you and laugh hysterically" kinda baby. don't get me wrong. kinsley is a sweet baby. she loves her sisters but she also loves her food...and hair pulling. and what people really don't tell you, and what i've never even heard people talk about is how hard it will be to "punish" a 14 month old. how do you say no with a straight face when she looks at you like that??

she laughs that baby laugh. and gives that sweet smile. you know, the one with the head tilt and little dimple that suddenly appears. and soon i just become a big ole softy. and as much as i tell her no it means nothing. because i can't help but laugh with her. she's just too damn cute.

so tell me...if you have a little one how do you tell them no and mean it? how do you not laugh? or does kinsley just have me wrapped around her finger too much? please tell me i'm not alone! haha.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

They said it would be easy, but noone said it would be busy.

Ok, let's just forget the part where I'm a terrible blogger and it's been over a week since I last blogged. Pretty please?

For some reason I didn't think my life would be much busier adding a third. I always heard going from one to two is hard but after that it's a piece of cake. Well, it hasn't necessarily been hard, although it has had its moments. What it has been? Busy. Super busy. There is always a diaper to be changed. A child to be fed. A booboo to kiss. Dishes to be washed. And last but certainly not least laundry to be done. So I tend to neglect the things that don't really need attention but want it. Like my blog....and sadly, my husband. But rolling over and seeing this exact face every morning? Totally worth it.

Every single morning, without me trying, I look over and she gives me that big gummy grin. The one that melts my heart. That makes my heart sting a little because I know one day I'll roll over and she won't be there next to me. She'll be in her crib, down the hall. And baby no more she'll be.

Soon I'll go into get her and she'll be standing in her crib. Yelling at her older sisters for touching her new toy. Like this one.

But she'll still melt my heart, just like her sisters still do. Kyleigh melts it for her sweetness. Her need to be cuddled. Her gerber baby laugh she still has and I hope never loses. The way she sucks her thumb and the pitter patter of her little feet running down the hallway. I always know it's her when I hear them. And Kayla? Well, she melts my heart with her beauty. The way she looks at the world and sees others. Her kind heart. And her smarts. And if she ever needs glasses...she'll be the prettiest little girl in them. (cell phone picture)

It still blows my mind away with how much I love these three little girls. And how it's different for each one yet the same.

But moving along.

My mom and Aunt came to visit. They were only here for 2 days before leaving for their sister vacation. My mom will come back Saturday after my Aunt leaves to stay with us for a few days. Kayla is counting down the am I. There is nothing like your mama. Especially when she lives 941 miles away and she only gets to sit in your living room a few times a year. We always pack so much into those days when we're together. By the time our trip together is over we are exhausted but it's a satisfied exhausted. One that leaves me dying for a nap but content. And regenerated.

Well, off I go. There's a precious baby girl who just woke up wanting my attention. I hope you all enjoy the rest of your week.


Sunday, November 27, 2011

The Truth.

I'm going to be honest. This whole "new" mom thing of three is not always easy. There have been days where I haven't eaten breakfast. Or lunch. Days where I haven't eaten until my husband puts dinner infront of me and tells me to eat. I've forgotten to pack things for one child or another. I've woken up late and made Kayla almost miss school. I've slept in my bed while Kayla painted a wooden jewelry box she picked out for her birthday. I've cried. I cried last night. Due to lack of sleep. Due to feeling overwhelmed with having a baby attached to me all day and feeding her; feeling like I've been neglecting Kyleigh. She still needs to be held and hugged on. Atleast I can still have a conversation with Kayla while feeding Kinsley. Trying to keep up with laundry and the dishes. Making sure everyone is clean. Doctors appointments. Guilt of not rescheduling Kayla's appointment for the last two weeks. Not resting.

And if I were to really be honest I would tell you how I don't feel "sexy." Or even attractive for that matter. All I can think of is please let these next 4 weeks go by slowly. How can I feel attractive with a baby attached to my breast and all the things that go with breast feeding? After my husband seeing me at my worst? Being in pajama's all day and looking in the mirror only to see spit up on my shoulder. My highlights are severely overdue and I don't have the money OR time anytime soon to get them done. I could go on and on....but I'll spare you any more details.

But I know with time all of these things will get better. As the days have gone by I haven't forgotten to pack anything for anyone in a few days. I've been showing up to Kayla's school earlier and earlier each day. And the dishes and laundry are slowly getting done. I'm sure I'll have days where I don't have it together and there will be days when I've done 2 loads of laundry before 9 am. And I'm ok with that. Because even though adding a new baby to our family takes some adjusting, some craziness and some sleepless nights, it brings alot more. Like love and joy. And those two things make everything else so worth it.

*I'm not sure how much I'll be posting. I'm getting the house ready because my mom arrives Saturday for 2 weeks. And as much as I love blogging, I know the free time I get needs to be spent with Kayla and Kyleigh or me resting. So until my next post, whenever that will be, take care friends! :)


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